Last night was my first “Change your thinking, love your body slim” class. I was online for 2 hours with some other ladies from QLD and one fellow South Aussie.
I can see there are parts of this I am going to love and then there’s the not so much lovin’ parts. One of the things I really struggle with is the Mirror work. I am required to look in a mirror and say “I love myself” for so many years loving myself simply hasn’t been an option. It was something my Father used to yell at me and sometimes hit me for because I “Loved myself” I still haven’t been able to do it yet today, but before I go to bed, I am going to look in that mirror and say it. I know it’s going to be hard (which is ridiculous because it’s just words…) but I want this and I’m not giving up.
I AM SAYING GOODBYE TO THIS WEIGHT PERMANENTLY.
Today I started on my wii fit.. Holey Moley… I lasted 17 minutes.. I know it’s a poor effort but I was boxing and walking and marching the whole time, and it’s 17 more minutes of exercise than I would have done last week. So tomorrow, I’m going to go for 20mins and by next weds, I hope I’m doing 30mins.
One of the other things we’ve been asked to do is create a treasure map. A treasure map is a sheet of paper that has pictures of things we want to happen. I’m going to put on there photos of a Kelley Armstrong Cafe Press Jumper I really want.. my husband wants to buy it for me, but I want to like wearing it, I want to look good wearing it, so it has become one of my goals.
Another goal I have is: I want to be able to fit on a roller coaster.. Now I’m not sure I don’t fit, but I don’t want to take the chance.. I won a holiday for family to go to the Gold Coast in Queensland and we are taking the kids to Movie World, and I am scared that I won’t be able to fit on the rides.. so a photo of one of the rides is going on there too.
The next picture to go on there is a funky gorgeous dress.. I’ve been asked to sing at a close friends Wedding next February and I want to look good when I sing.. and I want to be able to hit those high notes so loosing weight is going to help that… so on it goes!
The last picture going on there will be one of a family chasing a ball or some sort of physical family activitity. I want to be able to play with my kids and not be out of breathe… so on it goes.
Thanks again for sharing this journey with me.. and don’t despair, my blog isn’t always going to be about my weight loss!