Where’s a good swear word when you need one?

One of these days I will see my fathers phone number come up on my phone and I won’t answer it… One day.

So my Dad rang today… I thought it would have been to tell me when they are turning up… But no, that would have been too easy wouldn’t it?!

Apparently my sister has put herself into a clinic, dad was quick to point out it had nothing to do with “booze”. I mentioned that I had been waiting for his call to let me know when they were coming.. They decided not to come, but for some unknown reason, didn’t see it as important to let me know…

Don’t get me wrong, yeah it’s great she’s put herself in a mental hospital.. Fantastic.. But I’ve been through this time and time again.. And when she was ringing a few weeks ago she left a message saying that if I refused to speak to her she would hurt herself and I would have to speak to her while she is in hospital….

Dad said she’s been doing really well (I am sure this is an automated response) up until a few weeks ago, when she started to go downhill but no one knows why… Again with the bullshit! Dad damn well knows she hasn’t been ok.. He rang and had a fit at Nana (his mum) and accused her of giving my sister my phone number (she didn’t) so they all knew she wasn’t ok… They did the usual, let’s pretend it’s not happening and maybe it will go away..
I know Dad is blaming me for this.. But it is not my fault. I am NOT responsible for her life.. She has her choices just as I have mine.

The kicker was he told me my baby sister (who I helped raise, and lived with my husband and 3 children for a long time) had brought and moved into a new home with her boyfriend. I was so hurt that I found out like this. Dad also asked about the kids.. When I told him my youngest has been referred by an optometrist to an eye specialist he didn’t even ask why. (he has a slightly swollen optic nerve.. And yes this is the same kid that has bowel issues, and blizzare allergies)

I guess I just needed to rant.. Again.


By savvyannah

6 comments on “Where’s a good swear word when you need one?

  1. Its easy to say but hard to get on with. Try not to let “her” issues effect you. Concentrate on your immediate family, make sure that the love and support is there and they’ll return it at least three fold. Remember a hug or two is a wonderful tonic.

    • Thanks Gareth,
      I’ve been spending a lot of time enjoying the life I have, and it’s because I’m now able to say no now.. And yes cuddles with my babies makes everything else melt away πŸ™‚

    • Thanks Bea.. That’s exactly where I’m at right now. Mum has rang me twice this week, each time was about my sister. That’s more than half her six monthly quota!
      In the meantime I am grateful for everything I have with my husband and children.

  2. The truth is, the closer someone is to us the more it hurts when they lash out or can’t/won’t try to see things for our viewpoint.

    I think Gareth has got it right. Enjoy the gift of your closest family, and let the rest work itself out.

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