Goodness me! Has it been that long?

Hi guys,

apologies for taking so long for blogging again.. Have had some family dramas with my 6 year old son. Off to hospital tomorrow for a lumbar puncture and hopefully he will be on the mend soon.

So today I think I’ll write about meeting Shannon.. it was sensational! We went back stage where we got some one on one time with him.. I got to go first!! SQUEEE!!

He came over to me and I asked him if he could sign my DVD from when he was on Australian Idol and also a poster for myself and a friend (which I have now framed)  I told him about the first time I heard him sing, where I was standing and what I was doing and how it made me feel.

Then I told him about his song “Switch me on” I told him how for me, it reminds me of my Grandma, who was by far one of the best people I had in my whole entire life. I explained that she was the one who”Switched me on”  He looked at me and said “Aw” and gave me the biggest hug.. It was so special to have a moment with him, where without having to go into details about my past, he understood.. he understood that everytime I hear his song, I know it’s my Grandma reminding me not to give up.. I am worth it.  I never have to feel alone again.

As if that moment was beautiful enough, during one of his songs “Now I run” which is about his Father (who passed over 10 years ago now) I burst into tears, sitting in the front row, crying, watching him preform.. he came over to the stage, leant down and held my hand..  I said Thank you and sat down and cried some more.. he came and held my hand a few times during the show, then, at the end he dedicated a song to my husband and I for our anniversary! it was AMAZING.. 
and it just keeps getting better!! Last sunday, a photo of my husband, Shannon and I appeared in our statewide newspaper!!! Wonderful wonderful wonderful moments!!

This is something I will truly treasure forever.


I do apologize if this post is a bit scattered! Hopefully when my son’s health is given the all clear this week I’ll make more sense!

Until then



By savvyannah

What is the go with feet?

Ok, so here I am stuck on the couch due to tonsillitis (even though I don’t have tonsils ~ go figure!) and looking down at my feet I can’t help but wonder, what is the go with feet?

Seriously, they creep me out.. And toe nails really bother me.. I hate the buggers.. So much that I have this annoying habit where I cut them back so short you can’t see any white bits of the nail, this drives my darling husband crazy, he’s forever telling me I’ll end up with ingrown toenails.. And ok, so I’ve had two, but two in 11 years of marriage really isn’t that bad is it?

The other thing that bugs me about feet is that I have never seen good looking feet, this includes my own. My second toes are slightly taller than my big toes, my little toes for some freaky reason don’t have a joint, and my little toes also really have toe nails only about .5mm long, if that. If that isn’t enough of a reason to dislike my feet, my heels crack open and bleed if they get too dry, so in the summer time I can’t wear sandals or other summer shoes! In the winter time they get dank and icky and I’ve also noticed my feet stink!

One time, my mother rang me to let me know she had been speaking to one of her co-workers about my smelly feet (yeah she’s a gem!) and said how I should chuck bi-carb soda in my shoes to soak up the moisture. Yeah cheers for that Mum, but I have to wonder, how the hell did my smelly shoes just happen to pop up in conversation?

I know I’m not alone when it comes to smelly feet, one walk around my town in the summer confirms this. Personally I feel the worst offenders are the ones who try and combat their “issues” by wearing socks and sandals, I wish to let you all know right now, this is not a good look! If you really need to wear socks, just chuck your sneakers on and be done with it!

I do have one positive thing to say about feet though! And this one is probably going to surprise you!
When I was 20 my great-grandmother was in an old folks home, and was bed-ridden. I would often go and help her eat or shower and spend time with her whenever I could. One day in particular I noticed the tops of her feet did not have any wrinkles at all! At 92 years of age, I felt this was really impressive! And as a result the only two tattoos I have are on the tops of my feet.

So I guess when you put it into perspective, these feet that drive me crazy now, could very well be my best feature when I’m in my 90’s… Maybe I shouldn’t be so hard on them after all!

Until next time
Savvyannah xxx

By savvyannah

One more sleep!

So tomorrow sees my family and I departing on our very first proper holiday EVER!!
Needless to say the kids are super excited, the youngest two have been having some sort of competition to see who can wake up the earliest and then be the grumpiest by bed time bless them!
Tonight, however is the first night in Aanya’s whole entire life where she hasn’t come out at all after we have tucked her in! Amazing stuff!!

Our suitcases are packed, the car is full of fuel and we are almost ready to go! I can’t believe how quick the time has flown!
I actually won this holiday through yellow pages online last year, when I got the original email, I honestly thought it was spam, but just incase I figured I could ring the number, I did vaguely remember entering a competition with prizes like this!
The poor lady who took my phone must have thought I was a nutter! When she told me what I won, my response was “oh yeah….” to which she said “isn’t that exciting!”

It took a little while to sink in, but when it did I could not wipe the smile from my face, all up I won:
4 flights to Brisbane
4 nights accommodation at a resort in Noosa
4 surfing lessons
4 days car hire (it’s a big 4WD!)
And the spending money covered my 5yo’s flight and accommodation!

I have a friend who lives on the gold coast so we extended our flights and car hire and are spending an extra 4 days in QLD with her..

Now, just incase this wasn’t exciting enough, my husband brought for me tickets to the Hay House I can do it! Seminar in Melbourne, so on Sunday I get to meet Doreen Virtue! This is another dream come true and I’m so happy! Then after our holiday is over and we are home, I will be celebrating my 11year wedding anniversary and going to meet Shannon Noll (squee!!!) before going to his concert and sitting in the FRONT ROW!

Exciting times people! And I can’t wait to share it all with you!

Until next time
Love Savvyannah xxx

By savvyannah

I never thought.

I never thought that I would be so far away from you.

I never thought that you would make me feel the way you do.

I never thought that you would go, and leave me all alone.

I never thought that I would sit here crying here on my own.

I never thought that you would do so much without me there.

I never thought that you would make me wonder if you care.

I never thought anything could change what was between you and me,

I guess I under-estimated how controlling he could be.

By savvyannah

What to write about when you’re not sure what to write about

I have started to write this blog 4 times now, and each time, I scrubbed it out and started would seem everything I wrote was complete rubbish and was even boring me!
My motivation is beginning to sneak back in, thank goodness… But it’s slow! I feel really tired and lethargic and keeping up with the housework seems to be taking it out of me at the moment.
Saying that though, I am sleeping a little bit better, and am going to bed earlier, and I think that is helping.

I also seem to be getting side-tracked easily… You may have noticed!
Speaking of being side tracked, I came across a TV show a few weeks ago called “Outnumbered” the daughter in this series I think her name is Karen, is so much like my daughter Aanya… Not looks wise, but personality wise. It reminded me of when (see, I told you I’m a side-track-Sally at the moment) Aanya was four and had to have her four year old immunisations.

The nurse giving the immunization had known me since I was a baby (she went to school with my Mum) and thought it was lovely that she did my immunizations and was now doing my daughters. We took Aanya into the little room, and Aanya sat down. The nurse came over and asked Aanya to roll her sleeves up and explained that it would just hurt “a little bit, like a mosquito bite”

To this day I still laugh when I remember the look of horror on the nurses face after the way Aanya reacted. After the first shot, Aanya looked the nurse fair in the eye and screamed “How could you do that to a little kid?! Don’t you know that hurts! Ow!!!”
To be honest, I’m not sure I comforted the right person.. I think the nurse needed a hug more than Aanya did!

Anyway, back to the point I was making is that this character Karen, could really have been modeled on my daughter, it’s scary! My husband and I have even started looking at each other saying “you gave me a goat!” (from one of the Christmas episodes) whenever Aanya goes on one of her lectures about what ever topic is fascinating her at the moment. (this week it has been whether or not time travel could actually be possible, and if so, would the cost it would take to power the fuel source be worth the benefits that time travel would give, considering that changing the past may alter the future… And in case you are wondering, she is 10!)

Oh, and this time next week I’ll be packing for our holiday! Yay!

So until my next update, stay safe and tell someone you love them!

Love Savvyannah xxx

By savvyannah

Motivation, where’d you go?

So my weightless journey seems to be stalling.. Not quite sure why.. Am thinking its because my gym pass ran out? But I haven’t even been interested in playing my wii fit either..
I’m worried about slipping into bad habits again, so tomorrow I will make sure I have breakfast before I leave the house and I’m going to stick to my water bottle and fight the cravings for soft drink..

Maybe I could blame it on stress… I don’t know, but the last week just been I just really wasn’t feeling the exercise pull. When I had my 10 visit pass for the gym I was more structured about my day.. I would take the kids to school, head to the gym and the rest of my day would go from there..
Maybe I need to drop the kids at school and then go for a walk before I head home?

I know I could get another pass, but it’s $90AU and we are going on holidays next week so I really don’t want to spend that, but then I guess I could argue that I’m spending money on crappy food anyway because my motivation is lacking… Goodness me I’m annoying myself with this! I hope it’s not driving you guys nuts too!

One positive point is a tried a nightie on last night that I haven’t worn in over 6 years and it fit! So that was exciting.. Maybe I need to start re-evaluating goals or something?

At least tomorrow is a new day, so I can make new choices and get back on this fitness kick.. I know I can do it, I just need to stick with it.

Hope you guys are having a great week..

Love Savvyannah xx

By savvyannah

My own little piece of Heaven


For those of you who know me from the forum, you would be familiar with Kelley Armstrong’s Novella “Angelic” which was published via Subterranean Press.

For so long I have wished that I owned a copy of this book.. and towards the end of last year it became a high priority of mine to purchase it. I searched everywhere I could think of looking for a copy of Angelic.  I even began looking on international Amazon sites! 

When Kelley so kindly donated a bunch of her books for the JD charity auction I was hopeful that maybe I could win it via auction, but sadly it was not meant to be. At the same time, one of my best friends (who I met through Kelley’s forum) mentioned how she too would be bidding on some of Kelley’s books.. she was hoping to win the 13 pack, with all three covers. Kelley once again had offered a bonus to anyone from the forum who won any of the auctions.. the bonus for the 13 pack was a choice of any of Kelley’s published works… Angelic was included! 

I mentioned to ER that if she won and didn’t want any of the other bonuses (She has an extensive collection, much bigger than mine) I could buy Angelic off her to help cover costs. Sadly when the auction came to an end, ER emailed me saying that she didn’t win the auction. She was really disappointed because she was hoping to get the exclusive necklace that came with it. So we shared a few “bummed” out conversations about what could have been and returned once again to searching for Angelic online.

Finding a copy of Angelic became my new hobby, I spent a lot of time searching for her.. Things were looking really dismal when I came across a copy on ebay for $3000….. I burst into tears and sat sobbing on my couch.. My husband (bless him and his patience) looked up at me and asked what was wrong. I explained that I just could not find an affordable copy of Angelic, and I desperately wanted her for my collection.. I couldn’t even get her as an ebook due to territory restrictions.

Aaron looked up at me and, as my heart sat pounding in my chest, said the words I really did not want to hear. “Please stop looking for it.. it’s making you so upset” My response was probably not the best.. I looked at him with tears running down my cheeks and said that I didn’t want to give up. He took a deep breathe and said, “How about, you stop looking for it, UNTIL we come back from our holiday, and then you can buy a copy.. I promise. It can be your next big purchase”

So I agreed to put my search on pause for a few months and emailed ER to tell her about it all.  ER emailed me back and said she thought Aaron was right.. but to help me out (and really to help me keep my promise) she offered to “Have my back” she would continue searching for me and if she found a copy that was in good condition and at a reasonable price she would let me know. Once I was home from my holiday we would team up and search together.  As hard as it was to take a step back I agreed.

Low and behold, a few weeks after that I woke up one morning and checked the forum, someone was selling a copy of Angelic for a bargain! The night before was the first night in a month that I had gone to bed early and I had missed the post by about 15mins! Someone had already grabbed the bargain, so I emailed the seller and asked if I could please be put on a back up list just in case the sale fell through.

Once again I emailed ER and said how close I had come, but oh well.. back to the drawing board! 

The children started their school holidays, and I was very much distracted from worrying about not searching for Angelic. The first week was awful.. I am the sort of mother who loves school holidays, I get teary when they have to go back to school. If you had come to my house in the first week and asked if the kids could go back to school tomorrow I would have said “Yee-Har” and started to twirl my pants in the air ! The start of the second week, they had calmed down a bit (thanks to a visit to my Auntie and a chat about good manners and not arguing with siblings!) and we decided to come home early due to the rain. 

We pulled in the driveway and I asked my daughter Aanya to check the mail.. She yelled out that there was a parcel from Sarah, and I assumed it was a novel I had brought off her a few weeks ago so I said bring it inside and we can open it once I’m in.


So I opened my parcel and noticed the invoice said $200.. I figured finally the postal system was acknowledging Kelley’s awesomeness! and didn’t think much of it. Until I saw these stickers


“Tamara, Sorry, I lied”……. I was like.. Huh?! and then OMG! it all starting clicking into place.. I looked at my daughter and started yelling “Get the, get the, get the!!!!” whilst making scissor actions with my fingers. Poor Aanya was standing there going “Mum, are you ok!” But I couldn’t get enough words out.. I ended up ripping open the package where I found


A sticker saying “Huge thanks to Aaron” by this point I was crying like a slightly crazy person! I rang my husband (at his work) and was crying into the phone.. all he said was “So it’s arrived then”


My own copy of Angelic.. After I read the letter ER had put with it I was a bubbling mess… she had GIVEN me this copy, and even had Kelley sign it to me. She had done this for no other reason other than she knew how badly I wanted this book and wanted to do something nice for me.  I quickly managed to skype ER and started crying all over again! It was then she explained to me how Aaron became involved with the plan, how she had to let people on the forum in on the secret so I wouldn’t buy the copy available on there, even how Alison and Kelley both came to play their roles too. To say I was touched by this would be an understatement. To know that somewhere in the world someone cares this much for me is amazing and humbling. Still now thinking about it gets me teary! ER is without a doubt my Rainbow (and I tell her this all the time) to have a friend like her his amazing. She never judges, is caring and kind and lets face it she is FREAKING AWESOME..

Not only had she given me this gorgeous book, but managed to get it signed to ME! but she also had made me a beautiful cross stitch which is now framed in my lounge room where I can see it every day, (which is wonderful if the day is not so good!) and a photo collage which has photos of us meeting Kelley Armstrong. These gifts mean as much to me (if not more) as Angelic.  I still have the box she posted it in too!

So that’s the story about how a girl in Australia had her faith restored in humanity by a girl in America.. It’s amazing that all this has come from reading Dime Store Magic almost 8 years ago, who would have thought hey?!

until next time, keep smiling and remember, you are never really alone, someone, somewhere cares about you!

Love Savvyannah xxxx

By savvyannah

Where’s a good swear word when you need one?

One of these days I will see my fathers phone number come up on my phone and I won’t answer it… One day.

So my Dad rang today… I thought it would have been to tell me when they are turning up… But no, that would have been too easy wouldn’t it?!

Apparently my sister has put herself into a clinic, dad was quick to point out it had nothing to do with “booze”. I mentioned that I had been waiting for his call to let me know when they were coming.. They decided not to come, but for some unknown reason, didn’t see it as important to let me know…

Don’t get me wrong, yeah it’s great she’s put herself in a mental hospital.. Fantastic.. But I’ve been through this time and time again.. And when she was ringing a few weeks ago she left a message saying that if I refused to speak to her she would hurt herself and I would have to speak to her while she is in hospital….

Dad said she’s been doing really well (I am sure this is an automated response) up until a few weeks ago, when she started to go downhill but no one knows why… Again with the bullshit! Dad damn well knows she hasn’t been ok.. He rang and had a fit at Nana (his mum) and accused her of giving my sister my phone number (she didn’t) so they all knew she wasn’t ok… They did the usual, let’s pretend it’s not happening and maybe it will go away..
I know Dad is blaming me for this.. But it is not my fault. I am NOT responsible for her life.. She has her choices just as I have mine.

The kicker was he told me my baby sister (who I helped raise, and lived with my husband and 3 children for a long time) had brought and moved into a new home with her boyfriend. I was so hurt that I found out like this. Dad also asked about the kids.. When I told him my youngest has been referred by an optometrist to an eye specialist he didn’t even ask why. (he has a slightly swollen optic nerve.. And yes this is the same kid that has bowel issues, and blizzare allergies)

I guess I just needed to rant.. Again.


By savvyannah

The Lovely blog award




A few weeks ago, the very lovely TJ from Word on the net nominated me for the lovely blog award.

I was deeply humbled and shocked.. I didn’t realize people were actually reading my blog AND remembering who I was 🙂 Twas a lovely moment!

Now, i’m to give you seven facts about myself so here goes:


1. I am clairvoyant.. Yes I see dead people.. but not like that.. well sometimes like that, but mostly not.

2. I have 3 children, my 12yo Stepson, my 10yo (going on 25) daughter and my 5yo “baby” son 

3. This September will mark my 11th anniversary to my husband

4. I have a deeply irrational fear to cottonwool.. I know this is ridiculous, hence “irrational”

5. I have a triquatra tattoo on my left foot due to my  love for “Charmed” 

6. I love to read. Kelley Armstrong is my all time favorite author.. last year I met her (15th Of August to be precise) where she gave me Becoming and asked if I wanted to be a Beta reader for 13.. 

7. I love to sing and dance.. I’ve been known to do both at the supermarket… actually I’m thinking that could be why my kids hate shopping with me so much? 😉


So here’s my nominations, check them out 🙂


1. Steve McHugh… This guy is awesome.. he writes fantastic blogs, check him, and his book: Crimes against Magic out.. 

2.Danielle La Paglia  Danni writes awesome Flash Fiction.. it’s amazingf stuff

3. E.R.’s Mind Madness ER writes about a lot of things, her pets, her family… I love reading it all.

4. Thoughts of a Scot.  I love the different book reviews, but my favourite would have to be the one where she writes about typical Scot words & sayings.. I loved that!

5. Matthew Lee Adams, Matthew is the author of the Winter Fade series and posts about writing tips.


Well guys, I hope you’ve enjoyed my blogs this week.. until next time

Much love from

Savvyannah xx


By savvyannah

Midweek musings

Well this week seems to be on the way back up! Yay!
I had two clients booked in today and it’s days like these where I know I’m exactly where I need to be doing what I should. There aren’t any words that can really describe it short of phenomenal.

I found myself singing my heart out today, for the first time in about 3 weeks. I even opened the front door, not caring if the neighbors or the people at the doctors surgery across the road heard me. I put on a concert with the help of Adele for my cat and two dogs and I think they enjoyed it! Hehehehe

Tomorrow I’m heading back to the gym, now my face has finally stopped pounding and is no longer swollen, I’m interested to see just how much I can do on the treadmill. I don’t have anything on in the morning, so I don’t have to rush, I can simply take the kids to school and then head off to the gym 🙂

The bottles for my drops I’ll be making have arrived too, and I’m picking them up tomorrow.. I’m so excited about this next step, it will help me with my healings and reiki as well and I’m really excited to have a local beauty and massage salon backing me with this. They will be using my drops for chakra balancing massages.

I feel like I’ve finally climbed that mountain and I’m standing at the top, looking at everything the world has for me. I know exciting times are ahead for me and I can not wait.

Until next time

Love Savvyannah xxx

By savvyannah